The Injured speaks ...

How was Tour de Langkawi?

It was quite a disappointing turn of events for me ... Getting dropped on the first stage on the first freaking KOM of the day, having to ride solo for the next 50km (barely made the time card - thank God still) ... Crashing early into the third stage and unable to continue the race after getting more comfy in the bunch and with the effort on the second stage ...  Plus an injured ankle.

That being said, having such a disappointing start to the season allowed me to spend more time hanging out and talking to none other than our team manager/friend/mentor, Mr Daniel Loy! You always can't seem to sit down with him to have a good deep chat in Singapore because of the busy lives we all lead, especially him!! Those couple of nights spent talking, eating, and time spent in the car finding things ranging from  good ol' uberfantastic chendol to laundry service were really profitable. It helped me to resolve the many issues I had within me for the past couple of months, inspired and motivated me to train despite whatever, and made me able to forget about the distracting past future, and just focus on the present.

I guess sometimes all we need is someone whom you trust and really knows what you're going through to talk to (you can bet that I am really thankful I have a few of such!) ... and then all these frustrations and distractions just disappear and all you're left with is renewed zeal and passion to just keep doing the things you have found mundane and uninteresting.

It's quite funny how stuff worked out:

In Dec last year, I prayed for a closer walk with God.

God's answer: He gave me so much frustrations, things to worry about, and a lousy form with a fast approaching race that I had no choice but to lean fully on God, commit every single tiny thing to Him and trust him totally.

In Jan, when I got dropped during stage 1, I prayed persistently that I'd be able to make the time cut and race the next day.

God's answer: He enabled me to barely make the time cut (I was just off by 30 sec!!), and taught me again that I must rely on Him and not on my own strengths. If I hadn't made the time cut, I might be very well be blaming God, and if I had made the time cut just 3 minutes before, I might have very well take pride in myself. God knows best.

In early Jan, I prayed for renewed passion and motivation to train and to put the fun back into cycling.

God's answer: He waited one month, allowed me to crash (yes i believe it was part of God's plan), injure my ankle which forced me off proper training ... till this day.

And so here I am, still nursing an injured ankle, and still not back to normal training for about 3 weeks. But because of this, I'm super duper motivated and miss training and racing like madd!!! Yepp God did answer my prayer, just in a different way than how I'd expect it to be.

My ankle is much better now, I don't think it's swelling anymore, and it's much less painful. Still taping my ankle whenever I ride outdoors, and tomorrow is probably going to be the first 2 hour ride I have done in 2 weeks. I hope the ankle holds up. I'd rather have a more conservative comeback to the sport and start slowly then to rush into it and end up injuring the ankle even more.

I think that's all that I wanted to say ...

Oh one last thing, I NEED TO FIND A JOB!!!!

Enough slacking around and time to get into a good routine and earn some money!